August 2nd
So I've been back in Estonia for a week already. Feels like yesterday when I was leaving Toronto and saying what seemed like a hundred good-byes at the airport.
I have mixed feelings about being back. I am extremely happy to see my mom, friends and my dog but slowly I'm remembering why I wanted to leave this country. Maybe Canada is still so fresh in my mind but Estonians are not as friendly or even that polite. For example, someone bumped into me the other day and I immediately apologized while the lady gave me a dirty look. In my head I was like: 'YOU bumped into ME!' But I guess I can't say that every single person here is like that.
I've already seen most of my friends and I honestly feel like I never left. I was scared that 10 months would make a huge difference but luckily the important friendships have survived and more importantly stayed the same. I was sad to hear that I only have a few days to spend with my friend Tea who is going to school in Amsterdam very soon. Although, I am extremely proud of her for getting accepted to a dance program and being one of the 10 students (!) chosen, I wish I wouldn't have to wait until Christmas to see her again. Seems like this year is a year of change because besides Tea, two of my other friends and I are all going to a new school and starting a new chapter in our lives. I feel like everything is coming together for us. I am so excited to start school in Tallinn. If you had told me that a year ago I would have said anywhere else but here. Now I understand that I have to do this despite the fact that it was never a part of my plan. I'm sure somehow this will lead me in the right direction and help me reach my ultimate goals.
The other day someone asked me if I regret the year I spent in Canada. I thought about it for a second because I could have already started school a year ago, never been away from my friends and family but to be honest I'm not sorry at all I went. I learned so much about myself, I got to be with my other family, made so many friends for life - all of which has changed me forever. I feel like now I'm truly ready for the new challenges, knowledge and happiness heading my way.
I have mixed feelings about being back. I am extremely happy to see my mom, friends and my dog but slowly I'm remembering why I wanted to leave this country. Maybe Canada is still so fresh in my mind but Estonians are not as friendly or even that polite. For example, someone bumped into me the other day and I immediately apologized while the lady gave me a dirty look. In my head I was like: 'YOU bumped into ME!' But I guess I can't say that every single person here is like that.
I've already seen most of my friends and I honestly feel like I never left. I was scared that 10 months would make a huge difference but luckily the important friendships have survived and more importantly stayed the same. I was sad to hear that I only have a few days to spend with my friend Tea who is going to school in Amsterdam very soon. Although, I am extremely proud of her for getting accepted to a dance program and being one of the 10 students (!) chosen, I wish I wouldn't have to wait until Christmas to see her again. Seems like this year is a year of change because besides Tea, two of my other friends and I are all going to a new school and starting a new chapter in our lives. I feel like everything is coming together for us. I am so excited to start school in Tallinn. If you had told me that a year ago I would have said anywhere else but here. Now I understand that I have to do this despite the fact that it was never a part of my plan. I'm sure somehow this will lead me in the right direction and help me reach my ultimate goals.
The other day someone asked me if I regret the year I spent in Canada. I thought about it for a second because I could have already started school a year ago, never been away from my friends and family but to be honest I'm not sorry at all I went. I learned so much about myself, I got to be with my other family, made so many friends for life - all of which has changed me forever. I feel like now I'm truly ready for the new challenges, knowledge and happiness heading my way.
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