August 22
These last few months have been very difficult mostly because of some issues with my plans for this year but for personal reasons as well.
Well I have decided to take the year off, well not exactly off but I'm not going to UofT. Don't get me wrong, I would love to go and it's still my dream to do so but for various reasons I just cannot go right now. My plan is still to go to Toronto and just work for a year and get everything sorted out for next year. I have a lot of paperwork which needs to be done in order for me to attend university next fall but it's going to take about 6 months. That's why I have to wait a year. I really hope I'll be accepted again in 2013. It was so difficult for me to say no to my dream university and even though I didn't really know my fellow students I felt so terrible already reading their stories and now just leaving without the chance to probably ever get to know them. I won't probably be attending UofT Mississauga next year just because it would take me about 3 hours to get there from my dad's house. I mean that's insane! I would prefer to study downtown. Well we'll see...
But everything I just talked about seems trivial compared to what happened this summer in our family. We lost a person who was so important to all of us, especially my cousin. He was the one person who kept me sane when I was freaking out in Canada. He listened to me even when I wasn't making any sense and being so annoying. And I have to admit I was doubting him a little later but I shouldn't have. He was making my cousin so happy and I know he would have done anything for her. R.I.P
Lately I've been kind of lost. I've lost motivation to do much I think. I have these moments when I remember what's important but I guess the key is to think about my goals more often and focus. I think that everyone has struggled with that at some point...
Well I have decided to take the year off, well not exactly off but I'm not going to UofT. Don't get me wrong, I would love to go and it's still my dream to do so but for various reasons I just cannot go right now. My plan is still to go to Toronto and just work for a year and get everything sorted out for next year. I have a lot of paperwork which needs to be done in order for me to attend university next fall but it's going to take about 6 months. That's why I have to wait a year. I really hope I'll be accepted again in 2013. It was so difficult for me to say no to my dream university and even though I didn't really know my fellow students I felt so terrible already reading their stories and now just leaving without the chance to probably ever get to know them. I won't probably be attending UofT Mississauga next year just because it would take me about 3 hours to get there from my dad's house. I mean that's insane! I would prefer to study downtown. Well we'll see...
But everything I just talked about seems trivial compared to what happened this summer in our family. We lost a person who was so important to all of us, especially my cousin. He was the one person who kept me sane when I was freaking out in Canada. He listened to me even when I wasn't making any sense and being so annoying. And I have to admit I was doubting him a little later but I shouldn't have. He was making my cousin so happy and I know he would have done anything for her. R.I.P
Lately I've been kind of lost. I've lost motivation to do much I think. I have these moments when I remember what's important but I guess the key is to think about my goals more often and focus. I think that everyone has struggled with that at some point...
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